Sunday, April 20, 2008

dream about death

i have been dreaming about DEATH the whole week, every night.

i woke up in shock as it was so real. nightmare!

i died and ppl that i dont know died too..

DEATH.. i am not afraid. one day, we all will die..and you do not know when.

how long does this will go on? how many will die in my dream again?

=(

dream about death

i have been dreaming about DEATH the whole week, every night. i woke up in shock as it was so real. nightmare! i died and ppl that i dont know died too.. DEATH.. i am not afraid. one day, we all will die..and you do not know when. how long does this will go on? how many will die in my dream again? =(

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

for some clarifications

For Some Clarifications i like this ibook. i m just pissed because it doesnt work well; i m just pissed because i can ask help for nobody; i m just pissed because i have to somewhat beg for help; i just pissed that i am useless and i can do nothing to help myself ; i m just pissed because i cant do what i want and i have to ask someone to do for me which i suppose to do it by myself; idiot ppl like me.. only one thing to do - ask for something new! i want a new macbook that i suppose i can do my stuff faster and better; it wont run super slow again; i can have built-in isight (even though i dont think i will use it that often); i suppose i wont have the same old problems and i dont need to ask help for anyone; that' simple i m sorry i do not take good care of it as it supposed; i m sorry i have clueless what wrong with this ibook now; i m sorry i do not know how to solve problems on mac; i m sorry i have to ask for help and this make me feel like shit everytime because i dont feel good to be blamed for the reasons that i dont know ha it doesnt mean i dont like this ibook or i hate this ibook. no i dont mean this way.. i just want my problems go away.. .. .. i am not very good at this; not at all. i think i am very good at shouting..rubbish.. p/s: my apologies to like this ibook as give not gift.. i m sorry if i say something wrong again; i m not very good at talking;

Monday, April 14, 2008

ha

give and gift..

will you consider yourself give someone a gift with your old stuff? is this a give? or this is a gift.

i suppose, gift should be new one; or else, it should be a give.

i m confused and i m guilty of being materialistic because of "a give" and/or " a gift"

please tell me that JANICE CHONG WEN THIN IS A MATERIALISTIC GIRL, A 100% AUTHENTIC WORLD HATED MATERIALISTIC Bitxh..

i think i have no way to clear my name..i'll carry this name forever..

please make sure i got myself a fuxking rich boyfriend who can afford anything i don't ask for.. please remind me to be materialistic and choose only rich guy for my next relationship..

please stay away from me if you are not rich!!

Saturday, April 12, 2008

nothing is right

i dont feel right.. nothing is right..
food is wrong;
rice with shitake doesnt make sense;
ibook is not working well;
i cant kill the monsters;
weather is not right;
my brain is not working right;


ARGH!!!

nothing is right... except the morning breakfast..

idiot day!

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

idiot stubborn me..


again.. i found myself being blinded by the very little happiness that i m grabbing hard now.. my job, my way, my dream, my life.. .. i need to readjust myself again. and i really need to control my temper. my current job just make me become more arrogant, fierce and cold-blood.. ya ,i am really good at being bossy and ignorant! idiot stubborn me!

Thursday, April 3, 2008

something i cant swallow

i am not an angel;
i am not a kind person too.
i can not forgive to forget or forget to forgive.
i may be childish
i may be idiot
i admit that i am stubborn. (you guys know me)
i do not mind to fight if needed
i do not mind to trouble myself to make him suffer..
yes, i do not mind; yes i want him to suffer(at least a little bit)

maybe i overreacted for what happen. so what?just want to teach him a lesson that..

"i am not born to be humiliated. not by you, not by any one! "

i want my pride back! maybe pride is useless but it is priceless.

there are things that i can not swallow silently, no matter how hard i try.


p/s: thanks dad & mum for standing up for me!

something that i can not swallow

i am not an angel;
i am not a kind person too.
i can not forgive to forget or forget to forgive.
i may be childish
i may be idiot
i admit that i am stubborn. (you guys know me)
i do not mind to fight if needed
i do not mind to trouble myself to make him suffer..
yes, i do not mind; yes i want him to suffer(at least a little bit)

maybe i overreacted for what happen. so what?just want to teach him a lesson that..

"i am not born to be humiliated. not by you, not by any one! "

i want my pride back! maybe pride is useless but it is priceless.

there are things that i can not swallow silently, no matter how hard i try.


p/s: thanks dad & mum for standing up for me!